How happy is the blameless vestal’s lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray’r accepted, and each wish resign’d”
These are the verses of Alexander Pope’s poem Eloisa to Abelard and the one’s read over by Kirsten Dunst in one of my favorite movies of all times, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind….
Well this is not about the movie although it would be cool if that was something for real… It is not even about the idea the movie represents… It is about much more than that, maybe something close enough but I wonder why we have different personalities… How do people get to change their minds on life that easily? Why is it too easy to discard feelings? And why do some others torture themselves with all that shit they go through?
For a moment there you would think I am about to depress you and maybe scare you of life and love, for a moment there you will think this is about sadness.. Well ladies and gentlemen this is just about life.. It is annoying, yet it is funny. Ain’t that ironic? Here’s how it becomes both…. Go ahead, don’t be scared…
State 1: Weakness —- Define Weakness:
A state of mind that leads a human being to lose that inner peace he spent his whole life building and thus no more be immune against life’s bullshit…..
State 2: Vulnerability:
A sign of weakness and stupidity, stupidity being knowing you are turning weak and allowing your weakness to take over.
State 3: Being Restless:
The inability to sleep… No No…. The inability to feel peaceful… Still not that… The inability to live knowing that you lost that big deal of a life walking in the wrong direction and knowing it will take you forever to walk back the same road cause the dumbass that you are threw the map away somewhere on the road to nowhere thinking that it was leading somewhere.
State 4: Dreams:
Another state of mind…. They never come true anyways…
State 5: Hope:
Hope’s a whore like a good friend told me…. It is some kind of lie we use to keep going on with our lives and believing we should be happy because of that future shit that shall never happen….
State 6: Running:
A state of mind accompanies with movement of the hands and feet back and force and ass shaking as you move those too in order to hide from responsibility and dodge it thinking that by that you are safe and hurting others while you are only fucking yourself up….
State 7: Intangibility:
The feeling that your feelings and thoughts are your intangible assets and you can’t touch them although you wanna discard those of them that you know will only stay to torture you and hurt you more by the day..
State 8: Forgetting:
A Luxury that the poor and needy do not enjoy much…. Rarely are those who have it…
State 9: Soul:
The purest form of creation… It is your where you start and where you end… You rape it, you shoot it and you sometimes feed it with apples… It only dies when it is destined to… Funny though there… Why don’t you try to embrace its purity….
State 10: Emotion:
It is that thing you shouldn’t use with your brain it is like mixing posion with food, or more probably water with electricity, you get electrified and you die….
State 11: Misery:
Living your life knowing that at the age of sic your classmate beat you up and ate your sandwich and you never got your sandwich back… And then meeting people who kick your ass, take your heart and emotions and never giving them back… What re you the target of global hunting…
State 12: Happiness:
It is the state of mind in which you cry when someone shoots your wife dead… Deep inside you are eternally grateful for the murderer.. He’s your hero…
State 13: Anger:
The state of mind in which your face turns red, your veins pop out and your eyes look like they are full of evil while everyone else laughs at the funny faces you are making.
State 14: Denial:
It is that state of mind in which you eat your apple, leave the room and come back to discover you have no apple.. You think someone took it and you start searching for the hiding place… For God’s sake you ate it man…
State 15: Depression:
A state of mind in which you stay in your room, willing to talk to no one and waiting for your apple to come back running to you.. First, your apple has no feet. And Secondly, remember when you were told you ate it, nothing changed dude.. Nothing did….
State 16: Acceptance:
The phase in which you believe that whoever stole the apple ate it and it has no way to come back to you… You decide to call the cops and repor the awful murder….
State 17: Hunger:
A state in which you feel like a million hungry men are protesting inside your stomach in need for apples. Believe me you are not pregnant with a million babies.. They are in your stomach, not your Uterus… And in case you are a guy, well, you have no Uterus…
State 18: Thirst:
A state of nature in which you drink water after you are done eating… Just because you learned to do so when you were young…. But are you really in need for water?
State 19: Crime:
Stealing your apples… You do miss them, don’t you?
State 20: Observation:
Setting a trap by leaving twenty apples in the room in which your apple was stolen (The crime scene) and waiting for the criminal to come back seeking more valuables.
State 21: Revenge:
Pulling your gun and shooting the man who stole the most important valuable you had, your freaking apple. You then go to jail and get sentenced a lifetime in prison. And well, you just killed a man who stole an apple that was never stolen… Deal with it…
State 22: Envy:
The situation in which you visit a friend who has a bowl of apples on his desk… You look at the apples and in your mind call your friend the lucky bastard with the apples. The next morning your friend gets hit by a truck.. Stop visiting people you freak…
State 23: Care:
A state of mind in which one person in the airport remembers to ask for a ticket to stick to his breakables… That ticket should say “Fragile with Care.”
State 24: Heart:
That part of your body that people convince you throughout your life is the center of feelings and emotions while it is actually nothing but your petrol pump…
State 25: Mind:
The root of all the shit you bring upon yourself.. You usually think you are clever and f**king intelligent and that your brain is the source that makes you all that well guess what, it is the source of the actions and decisions that f**k you up.
State 26: Patience:
The state of mind in which you never get back your sandwich because you assume you are just trying not to let your rage out although you are actually scared of being beaten up all over again.
State 27: Faith:
The Belief that some day in your life to come you will meet the apple again and if not, well, you will see it in another life when you are both cats….
State 28: Cheating:
It is that word you use to describe when you see the apple sleeping with the fingers of another man… And you go like Damn you apple, you fucked up my life.
State 29: Hatred:
That feeling you get when you know the apple is planning to manage someone else’s teeth… It is a major moment in your life.
State 30: Love:
That feeling you feel for the apple even after it gets married to someone else’s teeth.
State 31: Intimacy:
The reason why the apple left you for another man…. You haven’t been that good at it.
State 32: Honesty:
Something no one will ever tell you, neither the apple and nor the other man and not evcen your friends helping you through the rough events with the apple..
State 33: Friendship:
That thing you start to have with another apple just before you take it to the next level. You can never be in a friendship with an apple, you always want more…
State 34: Best Friend:
That cool guy named Booboo…. Booboo is a freak but don’t worry he won’t eat you if I tell him not to….
(Salute Raven – http://lifepainting.blogspot.com/)
State 35: Possibilities:
That thing I trick you all into believing it exists… Well thanks for believing me…. But well, I ain’t falling for my shit.
State 36: Redemption:
Some thing with a Morgan Freeman, A Tim Robins and dozens of idiots watching them for more than two hours… (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0111161/) – (I loved it though).
State 37: Death:
If it is yours then you are out of here for good and if it is the apples then you have got your revenge….
State 38: Pain:
It is how you feel when your ass get kicked at school by your classmates…. Oh wait… It is how you feel when everyone laughs cause your ass got kicked by your classmates….
State 39: Eating:
It is what you master when you are depressed and then you start complaining about being fat…
State 40: Diet:
It is every woman’s thing, some of them don’t even look at how there entire complexion will work with the diet, they are all robots, they live and die for the diet… Some women are already becoming extinct cause damn it they are already vanishing cause of the diets… What a fucking load of crap….
State 41: Customs and Traditions:
Your parents reason for telling you that every single choice of yours is a freaking wrong choice…
State 42: Laws and Regulations:
Made my man, broken by man, what the fuck does man want?
State 43: Politics:
Knowing when and how to convince the public that wars and death are in their best interest…. Well you can sell bullshit to human beings… How does the human brain work??? I will never know….
State 44: Economics:
The real reason why they all do the politics shit, there are no nukes, no mass destructive weapons nothing… The only thing existing is mass destructive shit, so don’t poop outdoors please….
State 45: Nature:
The whore we keep raping by our unsensitive, weird actions… Yeah she is a whore, she never says no…
State 46: Money:
The idealists say it ca’t buy you happiness…. My opinion: Fuck Idealists….
State 47: Children:
They are the joy of our life… We give birth to them, we wanna raise them well… We pass them our shit and crap and our foolish fears…. We are weirdos anywayz…..
State 48: Lies:
Everything the apple says in its defense for sleeping with another man’s fingers…. Fuck you Apple…. And Fuck the shit you feed us….
State 49: The Fucking Flue:
That thing that made me start writing this piece on the second of June and publish it on the sixteenth…
State 50: Guns:
That invention they say kills people… Guns do not kill people, I kill people….
The Country: The United States of Life.
The Capital: Bullshit.
One question though before I end this:
Why the fuck would you lead such a miserable life for an apple? What does this apple represent? And why would it ever be worth what you made it seem like it is worth?
Well, freaks out there…. Enjoy your apples….
See ya all……….
Thanks to my muse for being there while I wrote this piece….
Here is to my fucking muse,
And here is to the United States of Human Life,
And here’s to the hope we live by and for,
And here’s to Possibilities….