Save The Last Chance

Fear, anger, depression, heartaches, pain, hurt…

More importantly avoidance…

A lot of reasons to let go of what you may have and wonder later on of what you may have had…

First, you try.

You fail.

You feel scared.

You don’t wanna try anymore.

You feel awful.

You think it is the end of the world.

You feel hurt. You think you have all the pain anyone could ever have.

You get depressed.

You fear taking another leap. You call yourself cautious.

But well, you are just another coward.

Chances pass by, shots you can take and you probably should take but you sit and watch and fear stepping into the world of leaps, chances, new trials. You fear to step out of your own box, one you can only see, one your imagination have built for you making you believe it is your safe place, your very own protective shield. The hell it is not. That very same box you believe is safe is only the reason why you will feel angry and hurt and completely alone for the rest of your life. Just because you couldn’t walk away, you couldn’t move on, it does not mean you are safe. It just means that the best shot you could take, the best chance you may get, your best leap are what you shall lose. Maybe you shall not only lose your best chance at achieving something great but you may also someday go past your last chance and live the rest of your life regretting in depression.

Wanna do it right…

Take that leap you failed to realize you should take…

Save yourself…

Save your last chance…

Where? When? How?

Today I got some funny work related news. I have grown up the tendency to call things funny these days and laugh at each single one of them rather than name situations annoying or uncomfortable. That way I get to keep the laughs and lose the sleepless nights in which I keep turning on my bed thinking of this and that. I am better off sleeping like a baby, and well some say that I act like a baby at many instances so, baby it is… I am keeping that kid in me. He is good.

Anyways, all the daily events in my life get me to think of one thing and well that one thing leads to a single question:

Where is my life going?

I mean come on, I have those big dreams, I still hope I would get to them, but if all the signs smile in victory upon me telling me that I am getting no where then I am afraid I will have to lose them sometime. Well, hope I don’t.

The problem with questioning your life is one simple question leads to zillion unanswerable questions in your head. A question as simple as, “Where is my life going,” triggers questions like:

- When will I get the job of my dreams? More importantly, when will I start my own business?

- When will I find a deserving girl to spend a life time with? Is she already here? Did I already meet her and get consumed with my own self and not see it.

- When will I hold my first child in my hands and make my parents happy for having a grandchild? And more importantly, will I ever have that kid? Will I give my kids the names I wanted to give them? Will they fail me? Will I fail them?

- Will I ever look back at today and smile and call myself stupid for thinking I could lose my dreams?

- Why am I still this far away from achieving those dreams of mine?

Today I was invited for breakfast at a friend’s. His wife is a great cook, I love المحشي and that was some great tasty “ma7shi,” I gotta say I loved the food a lot. I then held his one year old baby. I have a connection with kids, they always laugh and I always fiddle with my keys and that is enough to make them laugh, even when someone else around me does it, the baby wouldn’t perceive it as funny. I give the sound effects. I am nice.

Here is the fun thing, I put a cigarette in the kid’s mouth (unlighted) of course and took multiple pictures, and to be honest these are some of the cutest baby pictures you will ever see, just like the ones you get in forwards. I am an artist when it comes to being all parental and caring with kids. My nature, sue me. Even better, find me a kid to adopt.

عيش: خالد سليم

عيش…

حب الناس و عيش…

تلقى الناس بيوت…

فاتحه قلوبها فوت…

حب متتنسيش…

دور…

سافر في القلوب…

دّور في الزحام…

هتدوب الآلام…

و الأحلام تعيش…

و ازاي يا دنيا مشفتكيش…

قبل انهاردة معشتكيش…

أنا كنت مين و فين و ليه…

و ازاي زماني محسكيش…

Just think about it, I missed this song and I thought about listening to it and here is what I came up with at the end:

1. There are things that you never know will give you joy… Pursue them, who would know what is the best until he gives each thing a try?
2. Keep dreaming.
3. Life is more beautiful and fun than we may ever think or believe it is, just needs some trial and error.

Closed Doors

They put me here, in a closed room, many doors, all locked, no lights, it gets real scary when darkness falls when I can’t see anything, when I feel it is like a grave, when I feel no one shall help me if I cry for help, when I realize it is the case all day only the night makes it all clear for me…

And though I am not free, I know I need to be, I need to move out of this room and into other realms, other places I could see, I wanna do things I couldn’t do while I am this trapped. I keep hearing voices beyond these walls but no one answers back when I call for help.

Why am I left alone? Why am I trapped here? Why all the pain and the torture? Why can’t I get out of here and pursue that life which I dream off. I know there is no room, I know there are no doors, I know I the chains that hold me are all illusions, I know that life leads you here when you try to go against the flow, even if the flow was the least thing that is close to right, to truth.

I will still try to walk out and I will one day while keeping my own flow, my own choices, the ones that I believe are right and worth the challenge, worth fighting for…

The Ride

Since I was a child I wished to learn how to ride on the backs of horses. I have always loved the art of horseback riding, always loved the art of sword fighting. I have always wanted to learn them both and hence enjoy great rides in open air. I love how natural the whole thing feels. Nature, the beauty of what we are supposed to be, what we are supposed to mix with and become like.

I always dream of myself/picture myself on the back of a horse riding in an open area, nothing could stop me, nothing could ever make me pull back. My horse is leaving marks in the sand, trails. Maybe it is all about me always wanting to be different and mostly being different in a way most people may perceive as weird. And well, I just think it is great as long as it works for me.

Cars, jets, motorcycles, although all great scientific advancements and although they ease a lot in our lives they have always made me feel that life has become so artificial, so made up. If you take the horseback riding experience in ‘Nazlet El Seman’ in Cairo as an example yo are very close to the pyramids and all you can think of is the vast area that looks more like a desert ahead of you, the vast land covered in those granules of sand that resembles nothing but pure nature, rocks and stones, areas that are higher than the others, you could just go up with a horse you are riding and watch the world from a height, an empty world, no high buildings anywhere in sight, but still there is life, people laughing as they run their horses through the vast emptiness of nature, the one emptiness that is beautiful and with no technological crap anywhere in sight you can still feel happy.

I have always been a fan of everything natural, horseback riding, swords, women without makeup, sunrise, sunset, flowers, and all the like. I always believe that everything in this world is more beautiful the way it was created, always believed that the one thing that makes you feel more comfortable with life and more satisfied with the blessing of sight is nature and all that it entails.

I still believe so…

Defining your dreams

I was gonna post this as a comment but I thought it was too long for a comment so I decided to post it as an entry over here. I have mumbled and rambled about dreams a lot over here and I think this should be about the last post about them.

If I think dreams are what makes our lives worthwhile, makes tomorrow worth living and worth the wait. No one is born dreamless, it is only that dreams grow with us into more defined and more specific ones to form or final aspirations and dreams that we have to follow and pursue for the rest of our lives, achieving some and failing at some but at the end of the day the person who would work harder in the pursuit will achieve most of what he dreamt of.

The ‘Go Get It’ Concept:

The concept I have written about in the previous post is not an ‘aim low to achieve’ concept. It is instead an aim at what you really want concept what you will for sure keep pursuing and never give up on. The thing is when people don’t achieve what they dream of, it is all about the degree of their willingness to achieve. I mean people come to that point when they give up on what they hoped for, what they wanted and start blaming life and its hardships. Life has no hardships, what we perceive as so are seldom to be considered what we think they are and more often more like difficulties on the road. Such difficulties exist only cause at the end of the ride, when we hit our destination their existence are what spices up the achievement, makes it feel good and taste delicious.

Think of it as more of a road trip but a really long one. On the road your car tires may puncture, you will just step down and change whichever did and go ahead and nothing shall stop you until you are at your destination.

I always aim high, yeah I lose things along the way, and I partially fail and partially succeed. The failure reminds me that I cannot get everything or otherwise life would be overly easy, and the entertainment in it would go. The success tells me that I worked hard, blew all I could on trying and working until I actually got to achieve what I have aimed at or at least most of it.

My happiness with my successes correlate to my failures, those failures that may have got me down for a moment but then taught me how to taste the successes later on down the road, how to feel them and keep them.

I think the problem is that people always give up easily and so early along the way and start blaming life and fate just because they failed at their first try. They never think that they may have so failed ‘cause they try the wrong way or cause they tried at the wrong time.

Defining your Dreams:

Well, I will mention here what I mentioned as a comment to one of my posts. The vague idea of a dream is not an inexistence of the dream but more like a lack of definition of such a dream, everything is relative so when you dream you have to determine what degree of happiness you would love to achieve, and what wealth represents to you, etc.

As to how our dreams change with time, I think dreams do not change with time, I believe new dreams are added on the list and that’s what would usually keep the entertainment ongoing. I believe that all dreams are let’s say subsets of one major dream and that’s why we keep lining them up in our heads and hearts. And that’s when we have to start working on plan modification, that’s when we have to start incorporating the pursuit of those new aspects of a dream in our plans. Isn’t it all about being happy? Isn’t this the major dream? I mean even when your goal is to make someone else happy; don’t you think that your dream of doing so is based on the fact that seeing them happy will in turn make you happy?

The thing is even though dreams may seem to change they just get modifications along the way, giving up on the whole plan is sentencing your dream to death and then waiting for that day in which you die. Instead, you can always go for the other option, you can keep dreaming and make sure you always achieve.

The thing is one reaches one’s hopes only when they are willing to achieve them and only when those hopes are their true hopes the one they would work for with nothing to stop them. They maybe optimistic but not promising but only because the one promise in this world you need is from your own will and from your own strength along the road. You need to know that they are fueled enough to never let go of what you want and what you pursue. Now if that is real fueled up, you have your very own promise, if you try you shall achieve. And I believe in that case you will.

Go Get It

Beautiful hopes that join the life you live with the purity and beauty of your imagination, thoughts that make your heart skip a beat and ideas that seem so feasible except that some factor is missing that makes it impossible for you to make it through blowing life into them are all what makes up your dreams.

If you have a dream, if you dream of little things or huge things, minor achievements or major accomplishments, what do you do about it? A conservative person would ask you to keep dreaming but never try to hit the sands of reality by trying to give those dreams life. When it comes to taking risks there are three kinds of people defined in the business and economics as risk-averse (The conservative group), risk-neutral (The indifferent group) and risk-seeking (The aggressive risk-takers).

Being totally away from being the conservative person that many people tend to be and being more of a risk taking person who’s mottos are ‘No Risk, No fun’ and ‘No Pain, No gain’ I say that you should always take the risk with a leap of faith. You have a dream you go for it, you take the chances, the risks and be willing to accept the losses and keep your hopes up and keep yourself going towards scoring the big gain of all, the accomplishment of your dreams.

In the process some people are gonna stand your way, some are gonna criticize you for the risks you take and some are gonna hate you for being able to achieve. People whether they can do something or not, they are gonna tell you, you can’t do it. Those who can do it will wanna bring you down and succeed alone and keep going their way up to the peak of success with no companions. If they could eat the whole cake why give you a piece?

Those who can’t on the other hand will want everyone to be as weak and conservative as they are, will want everyone to have that fear inside from going for their dreams and never accomplishing anything.

Try, take your chances, accomplish, achieve and don’t let anyone or anything get you down…

Basic Principle of Conservatism, there are none.

So if you have a dream you didn’t get to yet go grab it.

Questioning Dreams….

Why do the years break down those dreams we have into useless pieces inside us like they were never worth a thing?

Why is happiness short lived? Why does it die cause of a single minor moment of sorrow?

Do we lose our way or is it that we give up and give in easily and accept what we get and What is it that gets us to lose the dreams we had?

I wish our life could talk to us and tell us what the truth is about ourselves and where it lies. I wish the long deep years we live could tell us where the truth is about our lives and our dreams. If those years are so innocent of hurting us why don’t they just prevent us from getting hurt as we live them…..

Why does the life we lead just get to draw us back when we spread our hands to hold on to our dreams?
Why does life seem so stubborn and unwilling to give us that ray of hope?
Why does life seem like it is so promising with hope and dreams and then take it all away from us?
Is it our doings that breaks our dreams or is it our lives that hurts us that badly?
Why do we settle for being happy with the tears filling our eyes?
Is it the years in our lives that is the cause?
Why does it separate us from those dreams we want so badly?
Or is the origin of all this trouble our doing and it is nothing but payback?

Will we ever get our questions answered or will we just die while still wondering?

To Possibilities….

Rules Of Engagement

If I want to quantify the things that actually altogether makes us willing to take risks and go dwelling into paths we wouldn’t have walked through what would I say, what should I have to say… Is there like a code, or should I just dictate my own theory and ask everyone to walk after me and follow me… It would be kind of nice you know, me with followers and shit and people looking up to me like I am some great world leader or something…. Well I am not but I would love to be one, who wouldn’t?

Anyways here is my theory:
“In order to give something your best you gotta see potential in it and well in order to give something you share with someone your best you gotta see potential in that something in that something and the willingness in that someone to give it his best.”

Now is this enough to give me the followers I need, I am not sure but I guess if I wanted to play a big leader I will need more than just this tiny theory, this is like the first law of motion, where are the other ones…. Well, surprise the second would go like…..
“In order to know that someone has the willingness to give that common thing his best you should make sure he or she are working towards it along with you and before all that the common goal is actually common and not just your goal.”

Now the third law would be around the lines of:
“To make sure that goal stands still and never dies you have to test the stability through separation, drive yourself and that other person away from that common goal, try your best to despise it, hate it, take everything regarding that goal lightly and if you both still stick to the goal and take a run towards it then it is real and true and if one of you doesn’t then it is not meant to be and you are not sharing a common goal, probably it was all a figment of your imagination…”

Now the fourth law states that:
“If you lose that goal never lose hope you will always have other goals, work hard on finding those and you will get where you want in due time, life will always have a meaning and you will always get where you want and I am always sure you will be as happy as you need to be…..”

Well the final rule is: Have a nice day…….

Do I hear any followers chanting my name…. I am waiting…..

To Possibilities…….

(And here is a tiny apology that wouldn’t do the good I have to do or undo the damage but if the Advice entry hurt anyone I would like to clearly state that it wasn’t addressed to any person in certain…. It was quite general…. The apology is addressed to a very dear person… If that ever hurt you it was quite meant to be general I am real sorry for that…)

Possibilities…..

What is it that keeps us living? Is it that we have to? Or is it the hope? Or is it something else? We dream, we love, we hate, we lose, we win, we sleep we wakeup, we search we find, we run away and we run back.

It is the dream that keeps us living and the accompanying hope. It is the hope that gets us to exist for longer periods of time. Everyone has his own dream, be it small or huge, if we dream of buying a new house we shall have it, if we dream of having a new business we shall start it, and if we dream of reaching the stars out there we shall….

Regardless of what my dream is, the real question is what is yours cause I already know mine….. And do you have enough hope to accomplish that dream… If it does then you can achieve…..

If you dream and have the hope then all the possibilities in life are open to you to pick from among them….

So cherish the small things in life, cherish the tasty chocolates and the beautiful colors… Believe in yourself and your ability to achieve cause if you don’t know one else will….

There you go, that is what’s with me and possibilities, and in case you are all still wondering, well, don’t ask me cause I don’t plan on answering….

Here is to the colors…..
And here is to the chocolates…
To love,
To dreams,
To Hope,
And to Possibilities….