Save The Last Chance

Fear, anger, depression, heartaches, pain, hurt…

More importantly avoidance…

A lot of reasons to let go of what you may have and wonder later on of what you may have had…

First, you try.

You fail.

You feel scared.

You don’t wanna try anymore.

You feel awful.

You think it is the end of the world.

You feel hurt. You think you have all the pain anyone could ever have.

You get depressed.

You fear taking another leap. You call yourself cautious.

But well, you are just another coward.

Chances pass by, shots you can take and you probably should take but you sit and watch and fear stepping into the world of leaps, chances, new trials. You fear to step out of your own box, one you can only see, one your imagination have built for you making you believe it is your safe place, your very own protective shield. The hell it is not. That very same box you believe is safe is only the reason why you will feel angry and hurt and completely alone for the rest of your life. Just because you couldn’t walk away, you couldn’t move on, it does not mean you are safe. It just means that the best shot you could take, the best chance you may get, your best leap are what you shall lose. Maybe you shall not only lose your best chance at achieving something great but you may also someday go past your last chance and live the rest of your life regretting in depression.

Wanna do it right…

Take that leap you failed to realize you should take…

Save yourself…

Save your last chance…

عيش: خالد سليم

عيش…

حب الناس و عيش…

تلقى الناس بيوت…

فاتحه قلوبها فوت…

حب متتنسيش…

دور…

سافر في القلوب…

دّور في الزحام…

هتدوب الآلام…

و الأحلام تعيش…

و ازاي يا دنيا مشفتكيش…

قبل انهاردة معشتكيش…

أنا كنت مين و فين و ليه…

و ازاي زماني محسكيش…

Just think about it, I missed this song and I thought about listening to it and here is what I came up with at the end:

1. There are things that you never know will give you joy… Pursue them, who would know what is the best until he gives each thing a try?
2. Keep dreaming.
3. Life is more beautiful and fun than we may ever think or believe it is, just needs some trial and error.

Some Things

Some things are not as awful as they may have seemed to be in the past… Some others should not have even caught your least bit of attention or care…

We could not change the past, we could only influence the future and now that we know, we gotta aim right and we gotta aim high…

First Times

There’s a first time to everything, a first moment after which you have a second and a third and a fourth until I is totally normal and you happen to lose count…

The first time you walk as a child, your parents celebrate it, they make a whole big fuss out of it and then you walk everyday for the rest of your life and no one notices…

The first time you speak as a kid they are flying off the ground (your parents) and usually anyone present that day, it is like they have witnessed a miracle, they talk and everyone around them talks but it is your first time, from them onwards you talk and no one listens anymore…

The first day of school you miss your parents and you may even cry, the following days you wish you wouldn’t leave school and keep playing with kids your age…

The first time you fall in love you are willing to invest everything, the feelings, the presence, everything, the following times you walk in caution…

The first time you break-up with someone you love you depress about it, through the rest of your life breakups become more of a routine for you, not that depressing cause you know someone else will come along the way and someday it may work right…

The first time you get a job, you try to prove you are worthy of the job and do your best, the following times (i.e. when you switch jobs) it is nothing but a routine, you do it cause you know how to do it, you don’t care about the results but you know they will be fine…

The first time your wife gives birth to a child you celebrate it so badly, you feel the world is dancing all around you, you can’t imagine how beautiful it is to have a kid and well when she gets pregnant again and again with a zillion other kids you are not as glad, and you may even start complaining of how she keeps popping out babies…

The first time you do something wrong, you feel guilty about that action, and depending on the size and magnitude of your wrong doing your guilt will vary, once you are done with the first time guilt doing the same mistake becomes a normal thing and you may not even remember later on it is a wrong action as it evolutes into a day to day routine…

There are two things that everyone have once, the first time for those are the last time, birth and death, and they are both celebrated with happiness and sorrow respectively (although some may celebrate the death of someone else with happiness too). Other than these two everything can have a first, second and millionth time, depending on the pattern of repetition and the chances, wanna have the real feel of life, make the best out of your first times and embrace them with their good and bad, they are the ones that really count, the times that really matter.

Challenged

To make your life more entertaining look at people all around you, think of what they achieved and what they wanna achieve and then determine your objectives; determine what you have achieved and what you plan on attaining.

Then you have got the task of reading people’s minds, in other words what they do think of you, be it positive or negative. After all, there is always the negative aspect of people’s perceptions of you. Now with the negative perception you have got a target, people may appreciate you, think you are great, yet they will always thing that there is something out there that you cannot get to, that you cannot attain. There you go you have a goal.

Now go ahead and start working, take your time, let the challenge swallow you deep inside and start your fight for achievement. Build up your confidence and work hard for it. Make your plan and go by it. Break down your target into its smaller elements and put each smaller element on a timeline…

Achieve…

Now when you have achieved that when you laugh, that’s when your life feels different, when you feel the utmost satisfaction and the highest degree of pleasure. After all, the greatest pleasure of all is achieving what people thought you couldn’t and doing what they told you, you could never be able to do. The greatest pleasure in life comes along when people challenge you, only then you feel at your best, only then you could laugh knowing that you have won…

Tolerance

“I can’t tolerate this…”

“I can’t tolerate that…”

“I won’t tolerate this…”

“I won’t tolerate that…”

Those are phrases that you hear everyday by people who know not of the real meaning of tolerance. I have been there, listening to them, trying to accept their very own measures of tolerance that are imposed on the surrounding human beings. Those people usually act all smart and untouchable, like they are supposed to not tolerate everything around because they are different than other human beings. The thing is you really know a smarter person when you hear his statement less from him/her. When someone does not affect you by his actions you cannot speak of tolerating their actions, yet some people do ‘cause they need control. Now those are sick.

Here’s the deal, the more you tolerate the more you learn, the more you go through life unaffected by minor issues, the more you know how to deal with situations, the more experienced you become and the smarter you get.

I think what we have to do is learn from the situations we walk through, that is how we get to know how to increase our ability to bear the people we meet and the situations we go through.

I have heard that in the practice of tolerance, one’s enemy is his best teacher. We better let the teacher do his job.

Driving Through

Do you have a driving license? If you don’t then do you have enough logic to determine issues relating to the driving process? Let’s see…

You are in your car, you have a windshield and you have three mirrors, one right in the middle and one to each side. These are called rear-view mirrors. As a driver or someone who can get to look at the logical process of driving, in one hour of driving how long do you watch the way ahead of you through the windshield and how long do you view the road you have already been through using your mirrors.

On the other hand you drive through life, why don’t you do it like you are driving a car. I mean through life people keep using the rear-view mirrors and forget about the windshield getting themselves to be subject to more life road accidents, more losses and more failures and they end up complaining, dad hit me when I was young, mom said this and that, my brothers got more, my sisters had ponies, my friends had a late curfew while I didn’t go out at all, my parents fought, my teacher yelled at me, blah, blah, blah…

Why don’t we do it like we are driving a car, we look behind to know when we could/should change lanes in either directions, either sides… The rear-view mirror is more like a learning aid like when we are in life, we may look at the past to learn from it but not to let it impact our lives negatively, not to use it as the hanger for all our future mistakes… We better focus on the windshield look ahead, only look back for lessons we gotta learn from our past and to know mistakes we gotta avoid in the future. How hard is that?

Break My Chains

For how long will I keep waiting for a change?

For how long will I want to fall in love and never get there?

For how long will I wait for your eyes to come by, your smile to shine through, your love to wrap my life?

For how long will I see you in my dreams, want you in my days and search for you every step I walk?

For how long will I accept my losses, hope for the gains and profits, wish for a ray of light to shine over my life?

For how long will I have my fears, wait for the moment I could break the chains around my neck, my arms and my feet and march forward for the better life I want?

For how long will I keep asking this question? For how long will I hear myself saying ‘for how long’?

Better Stay

You face problems, you feel the pain, you cry, you complain and you may even wish to die. You usually have to choices, either to go on and conquer your fears or to quit. I have been there, we have all been there and as the nature of human beings determine we are divided into two or more groups. Here we are three. The pain that is inflicted on us, the problems that we face may make us indifferent. When you get to be so it wouldn’t matter to you, success and failure become the same and well it is then that I think is the best time to shoot your brains out; hang yourself to the ceiling to jump off a cliff. This is when your life becomes useless; this is when you lose the one spark you should never lose, the one that creates the connection between you and your very own soul.

The second option you could go with is conquer your fears, go ahead and fight for yourself, defend your life, straighten things out for yourself and make your life worthwhile. That is when you get to prove to yourself you have a chance, you are not a failure, and whatever happens you will always have the ability to succeed and at the end of the day win.

Your third and final option is to quit thinking that by that you have healed your pain, and that’s when you lose the pain caused by your problems and suffer the pain caused by wondering for the rest of your life not knowing what you could have done, where you could have gone, what you could have achieved. And that is when you know you are gonna have the pain with you forever. A wise man once said, “Given the choice between feeling the pain and nothing, I would choose pain.” And let me tell you if you choose to quit then you are choosing nice, you are choosing to live in emptiness, you are choosing to turn your life into one hell of a huge void, a vast empty meaningless life. If you choose that walk out of the door, leave the fight and sign for the consequences.

Well, Lance Armstrong once said, “Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever.”

To sum up here, I guess I have always went with the second option and I still would, I always would and if I am to ever give an advice then I would say you gotta always defend you life, you gotta fight and you gotta win and you gotta conquer. That is what will always count. That is what you will remember when you grow old and sit around the fire on a damn cold night and tell your grandkids about. You are gonna demand that they make you proud, you are gonna tell them that you never quit and so they shouldn’t. That’s when they will make you proud and they will be proud of you…

And in the words sung by Brian Mc Knight:

I never quit,

I never go down,

See I’ve promised myself that I’d never let me down,

So I never give up,

Never give in,

Never let a ray of doubt slip in,

And if I fall, I never fail,

I just get up and try again,

Never lose hope,

Never lose faith,

There’s much too much at stake,

Upon myself I must begin,

I am not looking for place ashore.

I am gonna win…

Be Yourself

I have known many people who love to hide. Some hide their love ‘cause they fear hurt. Some hide their pain to seem stronger than they are. Some hide their happiness out of their fear of envy. Some hide their actions to escape criticism. People hide and hide and then keep hiding. It becomes a loop, never ending, and it keeps pulling us inside and we start becoming different people with some thing on the inside and something else showing on the outside.

Why do people hide, why do people keep their tears from coming out when they know they wanna cry? Why do they have to become this sick? Why has everything become a secret? Everyone fears everyone else. Everyone is in a game of hide and seek. I just wish people would be more willing t cooperate, trust each other, go the extra mile. I wish they could shed a tear easily and break the cold exterior and let their inner feel reflect on their faces.

I wish people could show their love without believing they are always going for hurt, I wish they could go for the best and believe it would happen to them. I wish they would quit the silence and the secrecy, I don’t mean people should totally expose themselves but at least they should always be able to share, get out there and say it, I did this, I want this, I want that, I am full of shit so help me change it. But people hate to admit their mistakes, hate to say they fail or failed, fear the envy that may result if they did something good…

Deep in the night, I sit here and wish and I wish there is someone out there listening…

Well, I say just believe in yourself, just be who you are and that’s when my wish shall come true…